Cave Awareness

Before i began dating my girlfriend i had been under the illusion that long term commitment, marriage and other similar ideas were toxin and would lead only to my own destruction. I envisioned that living life with another person would be like walking through life with a weight piled upon my shoulder. When we began dating the idea of her, or anyone being a lifelong companion for me hadn't crossed my mind. After being with her and seeing the way my life worked with her in it. I began to crawl out of the cave. For awhile i was on the fence about it. I was caught up in this feeling of wonder and ease that came with her companionship but told myself that that was hedonism and hedonism alone. I feel this way but this isn't the way things are. A blinding light. As time continued on i realized that i was wrong from the start. She would not be a weight with which to bear. Our loads should become one and she could carry my weight when i am fatigued and i to her. Leaving both of us more exuberant in our trek through life. Now when i talk to my friends who have dispositions about relationships akin to me in the cave they seem confused, they perceive me as the one who is disalusioned much to my discontent. Alas my pleas fall of deaf ears. They seem destined to stare at cave walls forever.